Crossroads

Folks, I am struggling hard core with my diet. Tomorrow's weigh in looms large for me. I don't really have an explanation or an excuse to offer. All I can say is that bad habits are hard to change. This is really a crossroads for me. If I can get back on program, then I think I can do this for life. If not, I'm doomed to gain the weight back. Of course, I said goodbye to my pride long ago, so I'll keep you posted.

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Maybe a Teensy Bit Less Than Expert

Has anyone else been watching the Grizzly Man Diaries? Animal Planet put together 8 hour-long episodes using Timothy Treadwell's video, diary entries and still photographs from his 13 seasons in Alaska.

For those of you who, like me, don't know Timothy Treadwell, he was a recovering drug addict that spent 13 years going up to Katmai National Park to "study" grizzly bears and foxes. In reality, he mostly hangs out, names all of the animals and gets in their faces to talk to them like they are people in a creepy high voice. Evidently, he and the US park rangers didn't see eye to eye on the whole "study" aspect because the rangers thought he was pestering the animals.

The sad part is that in 2003, his flight was delayed, so he and his girlfriend stay longer up in the park than ever before. That year had a particuarly bad salmon run so many of the bears were hungry. His last video recording shows a bear (that he doesn't know) behind him repeatly going after a dead fish--showing you hungry the bear is. That night one or possibly two grizzly bears attack and partially eat Treadwell and his girlfriend. There is a never-released audio recording...

During the series, Treadwell goes on and on about his expert knowledge about grizzly behavior. Since we all know that he is eventually attacked and partially eaten by a bear, it is fascinating to see him gloating about his advanced knowledge. It is strangely compelling to watch him get closer and closer to his own death. If you want to tune in, they show new episodes on Friday nights about 9ish. It's a bad decision kind of thing. Enjoy.

Update: His girlfriend and I are from the same hometown: Valparaiso, Indiana. retarculously weird.

Awesome Debate Skills

This pretty much sums it up folks.




Thanks Claudia.

Agony of Defeat: 8-2

Sports fans, we all feared this day would come. We lost our first softball games tonight. We were competitive in the first game but we pretty much accepted the inevitable and lost by 11 in the second game.

So, what happened? We were short players so everyone except for me had to play both games. It was tough sitting on the bench and keeping score because I wanted to get back into the game.

The bottom line is that other team was chock full of powerful hitters. I was talking to their catcher and she told me that they had been playing together a long, long time. They couldn't get a space in a more competitive league so they settled on playing in a recreational league even though they are much better than a recreational-level team. Most of their players were really friendly and nice so it was difficult to have hard feelings.

Bethany highlights: Unfortunately, not so many highlights tonight. I walked twice, popped up and got on base on a fielder's choice (but no strike outs). That's it, I am going to the batting cage! The most frustrating thing is that I had two good opportunities to catch pop ups behind the plate: the first time I couldn't get around the umpire fast enough and the second time I had it right there in my hands but it just bounced out. aaaaaaaarrgh. My only contribution was spying on the other team by chatting while taking their jello shots from them for me and my teammates. Oh yeah! I'm good at drinking sports fans! Go Team!

Confidence Workout Tunes

Okay, readers. I have a brilliant idea that depends on your help. I want to put together a confidence-building, uplifting workout playlist on my iPod. I got this great idea when I doing cardio last night listening to Mary J. Blige sing Just Fine.

Here's where you come in. I would appreciate suggestions for some good, kick-ass songs to put together a new playlist since I am tired of my current workout playlists. I'm depending on you, fair readers. Don't let me down!

Big Chicken

If you imagine a cold, black heart, then you have my self-portrait on the left. Oh yes, I am a big chicken.

I was so upset about my looming weigh-in that I skipped it. I just couldn't handle seeing a gain on that damn monitor. Nooooooo!

I need, need, need to get back on the diet bandwagon but I just can't seem to get it together. At least I'm back to exercising regularly, but I need to do everything so I can finally get my 10% Weight Watchers keychain!

I Feel Better About Myself Already

I have to weigh in today, which may be a big disaster, so I don't feel so good. You know what always picks up my spirits? Other people's bad decisions.

Here's a fantabulous example: Jennifer Hudson is engaged to Punk from the show I Love New York 2. Huh? I am not making this up. Click here for another article about it.

You may wonder whether the Oscar-winner has rocks for brains by getting engaged to a rejected VH1 reality-show contestant just as her first album comes out. Don't get upset, folks. Just think about how rational your decisions seem right about now. Aaaah, that feels good, now doesn't it?